Disappoint
by Assemblage 23

Just one more time
For the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil's embrace

Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

I can't forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It's not enough
I've come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none

Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat

And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I've been trying
To surmise

Though you are gone
I am still your son
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun

Contributed by Haczel

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For Jonathan
by Dave

J oy came into this world on 13th april 1976
O ver the next 27yrs we watched it bloom and grow
N ever dreaming it would end so soon and tragically
A lways smiling for his fans
T hrough good times and the bad
H e hid his sorrow and pain
A nd this we failed to see
N ow we can only ask why?
G iving his all in everything he did
R ecruiting new friends and fans along the way
E njoyment was our reward
G ood times were plentiful
O ur happiness was complete
R oaring out our delight
Y es jonathan is here
B ut disaster was never far away
R umour on the net began to grow
A re you sure? can it be so?
N ot our jonathan? no! no! no!
D eath had claimed our pride our boy
I t was true the neverending story has ended
S eaquests Lucas Wolenczak was no more.

Goodbye - God Bless - Still remembered

Contributed by Dave from England

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The Darkest Hour
by Virginia McDonald Innes

You left at
My darkest hour.
You were always a ray of light.
Great evil was on me in November, but
Instead of staying, you left.
It hurts so bad , my heart feels gone.
My tears don’t help, I can’t catch my breath.
I just want to tell you
You were precious to me and
I never could dream of this.
I only pray God was there,
Giving comfort in
Your darkest hour.
You’ll never know how
You touched so many lives.
I love you and will see you
Again someday and we’ll
Sing together in eternal bliss.

Contributed by Virginia McDonald Innes

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Life
by Misty Wright

What is the meaning of Life? I have yet to learn, and I will go on searching. Searching for answers. Searching for reasons. Reasons to live, and reasons to fight. Searching for solutions to not only my problems, but to others as well. Searching for a way out, so I don't have to turn to this razor or these pills once again. Searching for the Love I so desperately need. Searching for understanding eyes. Searching for a gentle touch to calmly soothe my pain. Searching for a place to run and hide each time I cry. Searching for a well to hold each and every one of my tears. Searching for Dreams that have been lost and shattered. Searching for myself whom may never be found.

Contributed by Misty Wright

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