11:11
by Lauren

Muted brilliance
Glory shattered with vengeance
Shards on cold tile
And who picks up the fragile pieces?

They say...
These stars fall farther into the blue,
Wrecked in the waves
Washed away
As Fate plays her destiny games
And hopeful eyes scour the horizon
Searching for that shimmer...
Now you’re coughing, sputtering sea water
So long settled in your lungs.

Once so natural in the water...
Flowing helpless with the tide.
Eyes shift from ocean to icy.
The subtle, striking change
That makes the difference.
Grasping with long fingers
And gasping toward the sky.
Did that rope you held on to
Fray and fall away?
Was this all just a glimmer?
All that remained was hope...
Desperation...
Mingled with a salvation
That doesn’t break as easy as delicate days
And years that all drift away.

You decide.
No more fighting the waves
No need now for a breeze or gentle ripple.
What is wanted is nothing
And then...

The clock on the night stand
Was blinking elevens
As you sank into darkness.
Illumination by stars and faint TV light.
Going deeper, deeper...
Searching with closed eyes for peace.
And I can’t help but wonder
Why it was so hard for you.
And why serenity
Has such a substantial price.

Yet I suppose we all must fall
Before we fly to glory...
And now you soar.
From dark waters to clear skies
Their color can not rival your eyes,
Now returned to their inviting hue.
Heavenly brightness swells
With your smile.
Feathered wings are fitting...
Strength and freedom so wished for.
Always angel reminiscence
In your cherub face...
Though you fell from grace
You have everlasting glory once again.

And here we all remain
With our memories, pain, smiles, tears.
Casting watchful eyes
Across the waves...
To the horizon.
Squinting to see you
Where water meets sky.
Watching you
Watching us
As we, solemn yet strong
Go through our lives...

Always remembering yours.

Contributed by Lauren

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FEELING
by Rach

you were a light in the dark
a magic star in my heart
with a smile that could
keep the northern lights busy
you were the ultimate dream
so much to so many
adored universally

I want to keep it alive, I want to keep this feeling alive
keep it real inside I won't let your spirit die

the reaper came before you could find
the trick to survive
those that were left behind
are wondering why
the truth has yet to come
dont believe the lies just keep it alive
keep this feeling alive

family left behind
care like no one could
keep you alive now
we got to find the secret
to survive

Contributed by Rach

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JONATHAN
by Rach

Man on the street corner I call
Jonathan
time to stop
it's cold and I have no shoes
My jacket is still on the bus
tuck those hands back in your pockets
while I go inside for a while
doubts crawl
over exposed skin
the air attacks like frantic mice
push them down and go back outside
leave Jonathan behind
Finding on the street corner a vehicle
follow the breadcrumbs up the staircase of fire
maybe I'll find some shoes here not on the corner
of the road where the men go in the snow
Run right to the back seat where Lucifer sits
in his red dress
he shakes my hand, gives me some tips for the snow
but I escape into flames
big mistake
where I'm going
I don't want to go
blood
and knives
and Charlie's disciples
with dirty halos
no waiting now
no going back
Lucifer said don't forget your time here is
forever
make sure you wave
to Jonathan

Author's note: It was sept 26th I wrote it. A dream I had the night before, which now seems VERY prophetic and freaky. (I dreamed i met jonathan on a street corner and then i got on a bus to go to hell and the devil told me to say goodbye to him).

Contributed by Rach

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Shattered Dreams
by Fayelyn Weaver

I spent years loving him
I dreamed about him at night
He meant the world to me
To me he was out of site
I always wanted to meet him
and now i never will
He will never know I loved him
and that i love him still
He took his life
and no one knows why
My childhood feels shattered now
all i can do is cry
I think about him all the time
every five minutes he's on my mind
I write letters and poems
I just can't leave him behind
My heart won't heal, I have no closure
I hate my self for loosing all my pictures and posters
I will never forget you
you made a difference in my life
and to know that your gone
cuts like a knife
I forgive you for your decision
for i don't know what you were going through
and with tearing eyes and blurred vision
I wish things could have been better for you
You will live on in my memories forever
I love you Jonathan

Contributed by Fayelyn Weaver

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